Memorial Weekend = Tired

I had an okay weekend. Not even close to the joy and entertainment some had with swimming, bonfires and alcohol. I was the sole parent to my son for 3 1/2 days. I love my son, but he does not listen to a word I say. No matter the time outs, it is a constant struggle to do ANYTHING. This weekend was no exception and so he wore me out everyday. I am glad it is Tuesday for two reasons...#1 I get a break from my son, #2 It is already Tuesday so this week will go by fast!! Hopefully tonight I can get in some t-shirt making..I'm dying to make one already! I bought the stuff for it on Sunday and only got the t-shirts washed. A beer after work sounds nice, it's just the right hot muggy temperature of 90 today. Sit out with the boy after work and enjoy a cold one. Cheers!

Ear Infections...I hate

DS has an ear infection of the obnoxious variation...you know the kind, it keeps you up all friggin night! We were up until 3am last night, crying and crying. First it was his ear, then it was just upset crying, then it turned into I want to play and you won't let me...and then the tantrums began. Oi Vey, what we mamas do for our children. I feel like a complete failure as I was alone with this poor kid and I was loosing my ever loving mind! I called baby daddy and he came over at 3am to help me. Of course the dear child went to sleep then, but whatever. I got 4 1/2 hours sleep and that is something to be thankful for. I just feel like a failure that baby daddy had to save the day. I'm on one hand just thankful he for once came thru but at the same time it stings a little that I didn't think I could do it myself. I have kind of prided myself on doing what I had to for my boy no matter who or what didn't work out in my favor. So calling HIM just kinda sucks. It also stung when I sat there this morning watching our "family" watch TV and laugh together...seeing what could have been...seeing what my baby could have had. His mommy and daddy in the same house. It's been an emotional and exhausting night and morning. At least it is Friday and I can get a quick break while hopefully DS gets some rest and comes home feeling a tiny bit better.

I'm BAAACCKKK! :)

Sorry guys I have taken a little hiatus. I broke up with my boyfriend of a year and a half, moved out and have been recovering myself and fixing my sons broken heart. It's been a rough few months but I am feeling so much better and i'm so much happier these days! Woohoo!

There's a new guy in town and he's fabulous, he treats me like the princess I am!!! Double woo hoo! :) Today I actually have a guest post and I will be back tomorrow with some extra special things!!

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Gold Rush Alaska is an Adrenaline Rush

Authored by Greg Fletcher

I have enjoyed watching Gold Rush Alaska from the first episode. This show features a group of inexperienced, debt-riddled Oregon men seeking fortune in Alaska. Every episode has commanded my undivided attention as these men attempt to overcome obstacles in the path of their mining for gold.
I was thrilled when the show became available for me to view free On Demand. My job requires me to travel often which prevents me from watching Gold Rush Alaska when it airs on Discovery Channel. I am grateful to have the luxury of watching this show on my www.direct.tv when I return from a work trip. I am so eager to see the progress that the miners are making, or failing to, that I don't even unpack my belongings before watching Gold Rush Alaska for free On Demand!

Never having seen the show before, my boyfriend watched an episode with me last week. He's now as interested in the fate of the miners as I am! With the show free On Demand, I'll enjoy watching episodes a second time while my boyfriend catches up with the show's current content. It's great!

What is up with the Blogger Designer??

I hate the new look of this blog. What is up with the Blogger Designer...it does not work right! I will have to waste more time on this later, so for now please ignore it! I'm back..ya I know. Again.

A few thoughts for Friday

My friend had posted on FB an article about a British man losing 10 years of his life to prescription drug addiction found at The Daily Mail. Although I agree this man suffered through a lot and will never regain those 10 years, I do think that the article is going a little far to say that prescription drugs do only harm. I do not agree with doctors handing out prescriptions for temporary stress. I'm also not really sure why a man would go to a doctor for being confused about his marriage but to each his own. I have suffered through mental problems in the past and currently and I know that prescription drugs can do a great deal for those that actually have a chemical imbalance and cannot just "change" their thoughts or ways on their own. When you are in that situation and you cannot control your own thoughts or feelings you feel helpless. No one else understands why you act this way and are so unrealistic. So you sit miserably looking for something that can help you and give you a boost to be able to be yourself again. I do not know why a person would be on Valium for depression but I think anti-depressants are a good thing and help many people. I do not believe I have found the one for me yet but I am trying to. I just spoke yesterday to SO about many problems Ive been keeping to myself, feelings of depression and more uncontrollable thoughts. I know I'm not done yet in my search for happiness and it frustrates me every time I start to feel like "that person" again. You know you are capable of being a happy, secure person but you are fighting the unending fight to get back there again.

Fun Acres, Fall Wreaths and Freaking out

Fun Acres - On Sunday I took SS to Fun Acres, a farm nearby that had a 10 acre corn maze, animals, games and much needed cider and donuts! When we arrived it was on the cooler side but sunny which was nice. This was our activity together since SO was golfing. We only spent like 20 minutes in the maze since SS was getting antsy and started cheating and walking thru the stalks instead of following the path. We spent some time with the animals and took a hay ride. Of course we had cider and donuts which disappeared very quickly even though I bought plenty of extra to take home and last the week. By the end it was rainy, cold and windy and I was ready to go.

Fall Wreaths - I have seen on many blogs lately a DIY fall wreath using only dollar store items. I am very intrigued here but I'm not sure if I have the motivation to do it. We'll see, you will know if I actually did...I'll have to brag since it will be the first crafty thing I've done since jewelry making (a large flop).

Freaking Out - I only have three weeks until my classes at Specs Howard start. I am getting more and more scared by the day that I won't be able to handle it. I am scared about the crazy schedule I will have. 35 hours at work, 10 hours driving to and from work, 9 hours in classes and 6 hours of homework in one week. That doesn't include the laundry, dishes, my son, SO, grocery shopping or sleeping. When I think it out in this process I really start to freak. It is only for one year so I do have that on my side but I hope I'm not so anxious by the first class that I puke. lol.

Can I be healthly for a second?

I am so sick of being sick! Friday evening I came down with some crazy flu or something. I had a fever, headache and horrible stomach pain. I ended up throwing up overnight and finally recovered in the evening saturday. When all that started I also was feeling something coming on in my throat. Since then I have been fighting sinus problems and losing the war. Today I feel very crappy, my throat is killing me, my nose is stuffy then running. I am taking antibiotics and vitamins everyday and i still feel worse and worse. Can I get some relief please???