A few thoughts for Friday

My friend had posted on FB an article about a British man losing 10 years of his life to prescription drug addiction found at The Daily Mail. Although I agree this man suffered through a lot and will never regain those 10 years, I do think that the article is going a little far to say that prescription drugs do only harm. I do not agree with doctors handing out prescriptions for temporary stress. I'm also not really sure why a man would go to a doctor for being confused about his marriage but to each his own. I have suffered through mental problems in the past and currently and I know that prescription drugs can do a great deal for those that actually have a chemical imbalance and cannot just "change" their thoughts or ways on their own. When you are in that situation and you cannot control your own thoughts or feelings you feel helpless. No one else understands why you act this way and are so unrealistic. So you sit miserably looking for something that can help you and give you a boost to be able to be yourself again. I do not know why a person would be on Valium for depression but I think anti-depressants are a good thing and help many people. I do not believe I have found the one for me yet but I am trying to. I just spoke yesterday to SO about many problems Ive been keeping to myself, feelings of depression and more uncontrollable thoughts. I know I'm not done yet in my search for happiness and it frustrates me every time I start to feel like "that person" again. You know you are capable of being a happy, secure person but you are fighting the unending fight to get back there again.

Fun Acres, Fall Wreaths and Freaking out

Fun Acres - On Sunday I took SS to Fun Acres, a farm nearby that had a 10 acre corn maze, animals, games and much needed cider and donuts! When we arrived it was on the cooler side but sunny which was nice. This was our activity together since SO was golfing. We only spent like 20 minutes in the maze since SS was getting antsy and started cheating and walking thru the stalks instead of following the path. We spent some time with the animals and took a hay ride. Of course we had cider and donuts which disappeared very quickly even though I bought plenty of extra to take home and last the week. By the end it was rainy, cold and windy and I was ready to go.

Fall Wreaths - I have seen on many blogs lately a DIY fall wreath using only dollar store items. I am very intrigued here but I'm not sure if I have the motivation to do it. We'll see, you will know if I actually did...I'll have to brag since it will be the first crafty thing I've done since jewelry making (a large flop).

Freaking Out - I only have three weeks until my classes at Specs Howard start. I am getting more and more scared by the day that I won't be able to handle it. I am scared about the crazy schedule I will have. 35 hours at work, 10 hours driving to and from work, 9 hours in classes and 6 hours of homework in one week. That doesn't include the laundry, dishes, my son, SO, grocery shopping or sleeping. When I think it out in this process I really start to freak. It is only for one year so I do have that on my side but I hope I'm not so anxious by the first class that I puke. lol.