Thursday

I was on my toes last night, the storms were scary. There were funnel clouds only 25 miles from my house and the thunder and lighting was non-stop for about two hours. The tornado warnings and alarms were on from 10 to 11pm and I was frightened! I was so glad when they finally lifted our tornado warning so I could calm down a little.

I checked my Michigan Lotto numbers this morning and of course, NOTHING! Ugh! I was really hoping for something! I would take $100, I'm not being a snob here!

I'm kind of bummed this morning, I could be working at home today and saved myself the 2 hour drive but last night I didn't have enough time to take work home. :( Hopefully I can get things done and take the rest home for the 2nd half of the day!

My SO is really pushing it with me lately. His motorcycle is almost done and he has been working on it almost every day! I am home alone with Ry until late at night and it's really getting old. I am truly excited for him that he got it started and its coming together for him. He's so excited and it's really cute but I'm scared out of my mind that he'll be riding it soon which is totally over shadowing my excitement for him. Plus I'm getting really bored of life being by myself every night and not having a normal dinner and time together.

The detroit news just keeps on coming..

Kwame Kilpatrick is in for it. I really don't like the guy myself, he's a poor excuse for a human being. He ran Detroit into the ground and hilariously thought he was going to get away with it. Even a short time in jail wasn't that much punishment for all the things he has done. IN COMES THE FBI! Kwame gets indicted - I hope the FBI teaches him a lil lesson. He deserves to rot in jail for the rest of his life. Makes me sick!

Earthquake in Ontario, CANADA

This afternoon there was an earthquake in Ontario Canada and was felt in the Metro Detroit area! You can find the info here. I did not feel anything but its all over the news and radio right now. People felt it in Auburn hills, Royal Oak and Bloomfield Hills. Crazy!

Where did Monday and Tuesday go??

I can't believe it is Wednesday already! Not that I'm complaining! Last night we went to my IL's for dinner. My MIL is going to make me fat, seriously. She makes wonderful dinners and ALWAYS has desert on hand. Sheesh! I always eat way to much. Ryan had some good fun after dinner playing with the hose in his full clothes! It was very cute. He started out helping to water the flowers and then it was all over as he drenched himself. He was having a great time. Pictures to come, of course I didn't have my own camera! There's always something a prepared mama is missing! Argh! :( 

Couponing!

I am going to try couponing! I fell upon Hip 2 Save this morning and have decided to try it out. I have been keeping up on CVS sales and how much I can save with my CVS card and ECB's which has been fun and effective. So I hope to start saving with couponing and i'm even contemplating trying to payoff my $10,000 in credit cards instead of going bankrupt. The only problem with this is I don't know if I have enough time before my creditors really come after me. My voicemail is full and they call my relatives daily so I don't think I have much time left until im sued. It would feel really great to be able to get out of it the right way and not ruin my credit anymore than I already have. The only issue would be my house that was foreclosed on. I don't know what would happen with that. Anywho either way I plan on saving some money! Yeehaw!

Friday was a bust!

Friday when I got home from delivering my son to his dads (2 hours later) SO was sleeping on the couch, he was so tired after his escapade Thursday night he was sleeping! So we ended up sleeping until 10:30pm, eating dinner (Hungry Howie's, yum!) and watched most of The Shining (SCARY). I was really disappointed but at least we spent time together.

Saturday ended up being a crappy start too. We had a long crazy relationship talk in the morning. But luckily it cleared up some things and was overall a good thing. We ran around town for a while looking for a lay down lawn chair for his sister. We went to Kmart, Target, Walmart, Home Depot & Meijer and none of them had one that was less than $30.00!! What is this world coming to when you cant get a lawn chair in the middle of summer?! It was freaking ridiculous! While looking though I found a great deal! I bought my son a 12" bike pre-assembled for $40.00 at Walmart. I am very excited about this because the lil dude loves bikes! I just hope he'll be able to work it and not get to frustrated, he is young for a bike at age 2. Stay tuned I guess! Then it was off to my sisters house for a little Fathers day BBQ. It was nice but we had a beer or two before so it was very awkward for me being buzzed and all (lightweight!). I was trying really hard to not talk too much. lol! Then as SO promised (well I kinda forced him) we went out bowling! yay!!! :) We had a really great time and the night made me very happy. We haven't had a date night in probably 6 weeks!

Today we spent time with SO's son and went to the community pool. I'm always up for sun and a pool! We got SO a tshirt and tennis shoes for Fathers Day. They were both things he's been wanting for a while now. I could really use a nap! Sheesh!

HAPPY FATHER' S DAY to all those dads out there!!

Emotional Baggage

I was thinking about my reactions to last nights tiff and how a lot of my feelings were related to past history and my baggage that I have moved into our house together. As I googled I stumbled upon Tom Haskins blog growing changing learning creating and read over numerous posts on emotional baggage. It definitely makes me think and wonder if I will be able to overcome this. I do not want to sabotage my relationship because of things that have happened to me in the past. I am only here because of my past and I want to think that's exactly where I am supposed to be. There was also a post or two on control freaks which I absolutely admit to being! and I think it made sense, hopefully some of these posts can be a starting point for me and even for SO to help him understand me a little bit more. He already understands me a lot but I don't think it will hurt and could also be discussion points for moving forward. I feel a lot more calm after we talked things out and after reading some ways to try and release some of my toxic negative experiences from my past.

I knew it was coming, just not how...

Last night was a complete bust. This weekend is going to be just us, its been almost two months since we've had one. Our kids schedules are pretty similar and it usually works out that one weekend a month we get to have a little date weekend when both kids are with their other parent. It has happened many times already that I get hyped up and excited to have some alone time and get to go out, counting down the days and all. So I knew something was going to screw it up and...last night was it. SO got mad at me because I didnt feel like whooping it up with him. It was already 10pm and I have to get up with my son at 6am everyday. I was already in a crappy mood as well so I didnt really see the point in drinking and staying up late while still in a bad mood...So he got mad, continued to drink and then went to the bar until 2:15am. Does this happen to other moms? First of all I think its ridicuolous that he got mad I didnt want to drink! Its my choice! And in my opinion he disregarded my feelings and chose to go out by himself instead of with me tonight. (I know he wont want to go out again tonight - Which ruins my weekend!) Is this normal??

Here's my first step!

I have been thinking about starting my own website for income for quite some time now. I currently work full-time so I'm naturally scared where the time is supposed to come from. I also haven't come up with a product or topic yet. So this is my first step. I stumbled upon a story of Tina and her website http://carrotsncake.com/ which motivated me to look back at my previous attempt at blogging http://thedoolittlefamily.blogspot.com/. My life story has drastically changed since 2008 which brings me to Drama, Mama & Friend! I'm very excited and I really hope I stick to it. I hope this is my fresh start to getting back to school, creating my own website and accomplishing some of my dreams.