Ear Infections...I hate

DS has an ear infection of the obnoxious variation...you know the kind, it keeps you up all friggin night! We were up until 3am last night, crying and crying. First it was his ear, then it was just upset crying, then it turned into I want to play and you won't let me...and then the tantrums began. Oi Vey, what we mamas do for our children. I feel like a complete failure as I was alone with this poor kid and I was loosing my ever loving mind! I called baby daddy and he came over at 3am to help me. Of course the dear child went to sleep then, but whatever. I got 4 1/2 hours sleep and that is something to be thankful for. I just feel like a failure that baby daddy had to save the day. I'm on one hand just thankful he for once came thru but at the same time it stings a little that I didn't think I could do it myself. I have kind of prided myself on doing what I had to for my boy no matter who or what didn't work out in my favor. So calling HIM just kinda sucks. It also stung when I sat there this morning watching our "family" watch TV and laugh together...seeing what could have been...seeing what my baby could have had. His mommy and daddy in the same house. It's been an emotional and exhausting night and morning. At least it is Friday and I can get a quick break while hopefully DS gets some rest and comes home feeling a tiny bit better.